1. May i just say that it is terrifying to be the object of someone’s affection. like, im so horrendously awkward and him thinking im great is amazing, but it makes me a bit self-conscious. which is stupid. if he’s really that into me he won’t care that i can’t match outfits to save my life or do my hair right or even just how i always manage to say the wrong thing.

    but he’s the object of my affection as well and truth be told i think just about all he does is amazing. /dreamy sigh.

    10 months ago  /  0 notes

  2. why am i afraid to show who i really am to literally everyone i know. i need someone to cry at and rant at and that they still dont think im a horrible mess by the end of it. im pathetic.

    11 months ago  /  0 notes

  3. Why is it everyone is so focused on just judging the hell out of everyone else? If someone posts nothing on facebook, good for them. If someone posts things that they are dealing with, good for them. You don’t like it, unfriend them. No need to put them down. Why are humans so anxious to make everyone else feel like crap? This wasn’t even my conversation and it pissed me off. I don’t even know the girl in question. Just don’t be a jerk, it’s not that hard. Faith in humanity going down every day and I just don’t know what to do with myself anymore.

    1 year ago  /  0 notes

  4. Anyone else get that sudden urge to just run away and start anew? Or maybe just disappear and never do anything at all ever again.

    1 year ago  /  0 notes

  5. I get too attached to people and I hate it because then they have to leave or I have to leave or they want to leave and I just >

    1 year ago  /  0 notes

  6. fine whatever, sorry i ruin everything. i didnt choose to be a part of this family and sorry i dont fit in and that none of you can seem to be bothered to even try to understand me. whatever.

    1 year ago  /  0 notes

  7. I don’t know what I am doing.

    1 year ago  /  0 notes

  8. I’m…so….needy, I guess….why anyone ever puts up with me I will never know. And yet I want them to. I want a best friend. I havent had one in almost exactly two years. I want someone to cuddle with. Someone I’m not afraid to love because I feel safe with them and won’t be half expecting them to leave every minute. I’m such a lonely and lost soul :/

    1 year ago  /  0 notes

  9. I am an awkward duck.

    1 year ago  /  0 notes

  10. So I guess I will end up using this to post some recordings of me singing. Why not? Pretty much no one will see them so I won’t be annoying people or get a hit to my self-esteem when no one likes/comments/reblogs them, and I get to satisfy my bizarre urge to sing and record my not-that-great voice. win/win. Also I will just vent all my self-esteem issues and annoyances here instead of my main blog or to people that I am probably annoying to death so I get to vent without losing the few people I have.

    1 year ago  /  0 notes